it was a usual day for me, i was struggling to get up and go to work (in the hospital), though im not doing my usual 7am-pm shift,i still feel so lazy to get up.. i practically pulled myself from bed and slowly started my routine... i arrived before 8am...did my initial check with my wards... scheduled my plan for the day.. 9am we fed the patient through NGT then the MDs arrived, of course they are like gods in the hospital,and if they're around you must try to postpone if necessary what you're doing at the moment..."they have this license which indirectly tells you, hey give way we still have a lot of wards to cover"....
we're supposed to do oral toilet for one stroke patient, but i told my ward that we'll let them finish first their rounds then we'll go back... these are some of the times that i miss working in the hospital as bed side nurse, cause that time i can bully some young MD's and i get along with consultants, i guess if MD's feel that you know your stuff respect follows and they will not look down on you..i ever had an argument with a female neurologist last time when she accused us of not doing our job but then i depended myself and the unit,i told her dont talk to much as if your putting the blame on us why your patient's condition deteriorated cause whatever you order that we carry out...we know our responsibilities and our limitations, and then i complain to my ICU-CCU manager, if that MD keep on accusing us that we are not doing our job,well, then go get the ward nurses to work here and we'll trasfer to their station...apparently it didnt happen..we still kept our post....
so the rounds was over and around 11am, we came back and to make it more interesting the stroke patient practically pulled his tube and i feel lucky cause i got another skill to do with my wards..so i call another one to do the insertion and the other will do the oral toilet... we perform oral hygiene first and followed by NGT insertion.... a few minutes while doing the first procedure, i receive a message from el bebe asking me to call her, then when i didnt call back she sent me a message, about a certain comment on her blog...a person by the name of artemis warned her about my sort of skeleton in the closet, the persons intention for sure is to put doubt to my sayang... one thing good about my sayang is that she'll try to listen first although i can feel that shes quite affected.. well, i cant do so much but to give her reassuarance cause im at work... we hang up saying " i love you", and later when we meet-up well discuss it... i guess relationships, should always be like that, two parties must try to sit down and listen to what each has to say before jumping to any conclusions, in that way everything will be over in no time..
what i have are just hunches on the person who's responsible for leaving such comments.. maybe shes unhappy with what i have right now...
it is always good thing to be transparent.. " i still remember telling el bebe my personal life before we even decided to take the risk of knowing each other more...
then after my work in the hospital i went back to school for a meeting then met up el bebe and had dinner together, she still look affected.. im sorry bebe seems that my ghost from the past will still haunt me until all things are settled..ill pray it will be over soon.... and we could leave peacefully...
we went back and cuddled each other... let me quote el bebe she said " its difficult kepping you as a boyfriend" its not true bebe... everything went well, we sayang sayang each other..
and who ever that person is, from me to you " mind your own and if you got nothing good to say, better shut your mouth!"
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